Moonwater's Musings

I just wanted to pop on and wish you a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!!

I miss my mom today and it doesn't feel like Christmas this year. No snow, I was able to wear flip flops and a T-shirt yesterday and no mom. It seems odd some how.

I'm very thankful for Tammy and that is a blessing. She is helping to keep me together today.

Blessings to all!!

Merry Christmas, Happy Solstice, Blessed Hannukah, Kwanzaa Blessings (etc) to everyone. No matter which Winter festival warms your heart, may you know peace and love at this time. Blessed Be to one and all! :-)

Merry Christmas to all my LJ friends who
celebrate!

Happy and blessed New Year to you all!

I am off to Christmas Eve dinner and church
services with my girlfriend in the East Village.
Tomorrow gifts and dinner at home with her family
on Christmas Day. then off to see my family
up near Rochester NY Saturday and return to NYC Wednesday.
New Years in NYC.

If I dont make it on LJ til the New Year hope you
all have a wonderful one!

Had a blessed and quiet, reflective Yule
last night and enjoyed the energy of the
Winter Solstice. Always lovely and peaceful.

Christmas shopping in the Greenwich Village
at lunch was fun and even bought a new journal
to write in for the new year for myself as a
gift. This coming year I intend to be more
loving and compassionate to myself as I am
to others.

Still a lot of snow on the ground.

Restless at my last days at work like
a school girl waiting for Christmas
vacation. Hope tomorrow will be a slow
day at work so we get out early! Then no
work til January 4th for me-vacation! :)

The snow finally arrived in NYC Saturday
during the day and lots of it! While we
were selling our yummy gluten free cupcakes
at the Brooklyn food market it was already
snowing and beautiful going home. I was happy
to spend Sunday a bit lazy and warm at home.
The market was really fun selling as well as
meeting and trying other homemade food people.

Today is Yule and Winter Solstice and am
enjoying the energy and look forward to
solitary ritual and meditation tonight.
I feel positive and happy as the promise
of the sun's return is upon us and the light
in the world! I feel I have let go and rid
my life of a lot of baggage and negativity
this year. I feel more healed, light, and hopeful
then I have in many years. my heart feels more
open again and light filters in.

I am so looking forward to a long vacation. Wednesday
should be a half work day and after that I have off
until January 4th of the new year!

Bright Yule Blessings and Happy Winter Solstice to
my LJ friends who celebrate! :)

Very sleepy today and thankful
it is Friday. Im ready for the
weekend and preparing for Winter
Solstice/Yule here Monday.

Tomorrow Ill be doing the food
market with my gf-a holiday themed
one which should be fun. Making
cupcakes and cookies tonight all
gluten, egg, and dairy free. I eat
only gluten free myself.

Sunday I plan to have an art day-work
on my painting and some spiritual
study as well as get ready for Yule.

Did some holiday shopping at lunch today.
Got some of my online purchases delivered
as well. Almost done with shopping and glad
to be ahead this year.

Happy Weekend! :)

The past month has been a bit of a blur. First of all, I want to express my utmost gratitude to those who contacted me, online and off, following the death of my grandmother in mid-November. I regret that I have not been able to answer each of you personally, but trust that you will understand why I have been out of contact for a while. So… This is my thank-you, to each of you. Your support and kindness has been appreciated so, so much. Thank you.

Since the funeral, time has flown by. My 30th birthday passed in a haze; we did do a cheese and wine party which was well received by all and I did enjoy myself, but it was very bittersweet, especially seeing family and reflecting on the recent events.

However, pretty much immediately after that things started heating up on the house front. Back on Samhain ajv and I had found a house that we really, really liked -- and, last week, we successfully completed on it and received the keys. And so, Monday/Tuesday just gone, we moved home.

I'm currently sitting in the dining room of our new home (*squee*) with very temporary Internet access via my MacBook Pro, in amongst lots and lots and lots of boxes. Our first house together, our own home. We're in, all of us -- cats and human and otherwise. Not settled yet, but getting there. Whoo!

I will try and get some photos soon to show you all the chaos... Now, though, to unpack the kitchen! :p

Sleepy and cold winter evening.
Going to enjoy a hot cup of coffee
and listen to my monthly teleclass.

I got a few wonderful cozy wintry
Christmas time mystery books from
the library and will be really enjoying
them this time of year.

Work was very busy so happy to be
home tonight. Also starting to be great
evening bubble bath with candlelight
at night weather.

Warmed up to 50s today and then going back
to colder 30s tonight. I have been embracing
my need to be more quiet and introspective this
week in preparation for the Winter Solstice and
Yule. I have been feeling the need to be more
restful as well and a bit more tired as we
are in the dark time of year. I also feel very
creative.

Last night I watched one of my favorite annual
holiday time films Little Women with Winona Ryder
and Gabriel Byrne. Just love that movie. It is
poetic and romantic and a lovely film in the
19th century period. I always loved the novel
as well by Louisa May Alcott. I always felt most
connected to Jo...her desire to be a writer and a
bit of a non traditional woman during her time.
I always feel inspired by her character in my
own creativity.

Tonight will be a night of crafting and just
enjoying this quiet winter period.

It's back with a vengeance. Even the positive changes make things a challenge and I'm trying to figure things out. Tam is very supportive thank goodness, but somethings gotta give. I'm thinking that the hormones from my periods are setting off the cycles in my moods. The last 3 months I've been regular and I'm thinking that is part of the issue. So, when I see the doctor for my meds, I'll see if they can also issue me birth control again. Keep things level.

*sigh*

Off to work.

Restful weekend. Friday night was restful and
enjoyed doing a ritual for my priestess studies.
My neighborhood has a large population of Jewish
Orthodox and all the Chanukah candles were lit on
the menorahs in the windows on my walk home. Very
lovely and spiritual on a winter's eve.

Saturday was spiritual study and laundry day.
Then my friend's Chanukah party was nice and
joyful at night with my gf.

Yesterday was a perfect rainy Sunday to be home.
I spent the day making art-painting and feels
good to have more creative time again.

I feel this time of year I want to hibernate and
be introspective and work on my art and craft
until Spring. I will embrace this need more this
year and night fight it. Be more in tune with
my own cycle and rhythm with the seasons.

First and foremost: Amber thank you for the cutest card!! I loved it and it made me smile.

So I'll move along now...

Work: I graduated from training on Friday. Beginning tomorrow I'm on the phones for good and this is my last week on the 12-9 shift along with my last weekend off. Starting Friday I will be working Sat through Wed and off on Thursday and Fridays. They had tons of shifts with weekends off, but I need the weekdays for doctors appointments, so this works out well. Plus I'm home at a descent time and can actually feel normal. Ok, as normal as I could possibly be. *grins*

NC: What can I say about NC?? It will be 2 months I've been here on Wed. I can't believe that it has only been 2 months. It seems so much longer in a good way. CT has gotten snow and I still don't even need to wear a jacket here yet. People here are wearing them, but I'm from New England this is nothing to me. A polar fleece and maybe a light long sleeve shirt and I'm all good. They enjoy making fun of me here about it.

Tam: Things are good. Real good actually. It has gone far better than I had hoped. I've had a couple rough days and she is not only supportive, but allows me to saw whatever I'm thinking, works it through with me and then allows me the time to work it through. I talk to her about everything, fears, random junk and anything. People who know me know I have the most random thoughts and often they are silly concerns and I can share them and she just hears me out, listens and then helps me work through it. I like the fact I'm able to do the same for her as well. The job situation for her has not gone the way she had hoped by coming back to Durham and she is holding it together well, but I think she is starting the fray at the ends. She's strong and it's taken her far longer than it would have me to get to that point.

I've been getting all the doctors I need here and I'm impressed and thankful for the fact that Tammy has come to every single asthma/allergy appointment I've had that she can. She wants to be a part of the process so she knows how to help me, where my health is at and to support me because she knows I hate the whole process. A week ago I had a bad asthma episode due to something that happened at work and she made sure she went to my appointment with me and that I was on my treatments every 4 hours and didn't get upset when I had to leave work early one day because I just couldn't handle being there. I was exhausted. It cause me almost a days pay and I ran the risk of losing my job, but she didn't say a word other than come home and get into bed. She had already called the doctor to let her know it was not better and what else could we do to make it better. This is not something I'm used to having done for me or the reaction I've gotten in the past. It meant a lot to me.

Doctors: I have located an asthma/allergy doctor and that is a good thing. I go for the Pulmonary test on Tuesday morning and then in January we begin the Xolair and allergy injections again. Which will be a good thing to finally get this stuff under control again. I also found a therapist and her name is Rita. The first appointment went good, so we will see as it goes along. I have another appointment on Friday with her to begin the whole new client junk. She can't prescribe my meds, so I have an appointment with a Family Doctor in January for that purpose. I guess here the doctors issue meds instead of needing a special doctor. Weird! But, I'm taking care of me and making sure the whole support system I need for my health and well being is being taken care of.

Hmmmm.....I think that is all to share. I've been really quiet but this shift has kind of sucked and getting used to wanting to be home and having a reason to be home and finding balance has been strange and difficult. I'm not blowing people off, just getting used to a new life and finding a way to settle into it.

I hope everyone is well, I miss you all and I read everything. I just don't always comments. Sadly Face Book has become a place to quick update and move along, but I need to visit LJ more for life updates and all that good stuff.

Freezing cold day in New York. 24 degrees
this morning when I got to work. I bought
a new hat, scarf, and gloves to stay warmer
at lunch. I love the periwinkle knitted
scarf I found at H and M.

Last night I did my holiday cards. Mailed
then out today and mailed my Yule gift
out yesterday for one of my OWM sisters.

I am so glad it is Friday. Feel tired and
ready to be warm and cozy at home this weekend.
I have a holiday party tomorrow night to
attend with my girlfriend. That will be fun. Otherwise
I will be doing art-painting,working on my
priestess studies, and other restful, wintry
activities.

Happy Friday!